Squirrely post
I am on the verge of not writing this post at all because it is the third time writing it due to computer problems but with the recent silence from my end, I suppose I owe you this much.
This one is going to be everywhere back and forth on your posts because I haven’t replied to them in so long.
“My initial crush on you was because of your big mouth and bad assness (and for your hotness).”
When I read this the first time I read “your BAD mouth and BIG assness.” I actually took it as a pretty good compliment.
So you have half-yellow fever? I guess I have something similar towards white males. Or more correctly, non-asian males. I think I’ve explained this to you before as a default position because I find coupling with an asian while being a fake-asian to be too culturally-charged. That being said, I had a cute crush on Han in 2A last year. I think he is just too cute.
re: Panzer + Carmen L + Gabe Li
What a bizarre incident. I’ve never met this Carmen, but I remember you describing her as ridiculously good-looking with the biggest white teeth you’ve ever seen. This simultaneously makes me want to high-five Pooya and shake him really hard. He is just so painfully Iranian sometimes. That, and I think he is, at times, too nervous and shy to really put himself out there. Remember how much feet-shuffling and mumbling he did with the “I got story for you” last term (re: Daniela). He mentioned it for like 3 weeks then neglected to tell me in the end! He just defeatedly said, “so, guess no story” when he was saying goodbye to me.
Speaking of Panzer, I might be his neighbour come September. That is, if everthing works out with Lily and my roommate. The roomie is a big of a question mark because Jody is currently looking for a place in Ainslie after Connor backed out on the deal by signing a lease somewhere else. If she splits the rent with me, it will be so much more closer and cheaper than finding a place in Ainslie but I think she wants to be near more people. Then a few days ago, Tyler Bowa approached me for splitting the rent on it. Trouble is, I don’t know how serious he is (since he’s always commuted back to his house in Waterloo) and I imagine that he will want to have constant parties when I’m sure this is not what the landlord wants. I still haven’t heard back from Lily, so I guess we’ll wait and see.
Oh, and Gabe is a girl.
On this not being your place. I sometimes agree with Farid. Sometimes, I see you losing it in front of me (or atleast on your blog) and I feel very helpless. You are one of the most selfish person I have ever met in that you will not make any compromises for yourself in dealing with people, doing things for people, doing anything in general. If you see no merit in it, have not an inkling of respect for those involved, or just see no fucking worth in it, you just cannot bring yourself to carry through with it. I don’t think anything that anyone says really matters to you at this point so I just wait until you realize yourself that you should just do it to finish your thesis, graduate, and get the hell out of here (there?). I have similar sentiments for you and the school as I do for Pooya and the school. I will honestly be happy for you when you leave.
